loneliness

strikes at the oddest of times. I'm coming to realize that one of the "thorns" in my side is feeling like an outsider looking in. Always feeling like somehow, I'm not included in the truly IN crowd. 

Which is stupid. But, still, valid. 

The times loneliness strikes...  when I feel like the amount that I give out is not what I receive. The times that I feel like I reach out, I don't get reached out to. the moments I care, I'm uncared for. I want, but don't receive. 

Certain people make me feel more lonelier than others. The incredibly sad part is, those people cause me to forget about the people who want to make me feel less alone, which in turns, causes ... loneliness. 

People don't realize or recognize that loneliness is the root and cause of chain reactions.