Gee~

2009 has barely started and i feel like i've been stuck in landslide of emotions.

the funk started when i was back at home... the continuation of which could be due to multiple factors:

a. being poor.
b. feeling old.
c. having no direction.

i'm in a funk. but still, when i am there for my friends when the shit hits the fan, i feel purposeful and replenished. i am blessed to be surrounded by the people that i am.

i love you and i'm praying for you. i'm here for you no matter what you decide to do or go through.

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i have been applying to all sorts of administrative/customer service/hospitality jobs. something's bound to turn up soon.

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i have never been THIS non excited about my impending birthday. ever. -__-. i was watching "You'll Never get rich" and i realized that Rita Hayworth was 23 when she made that movie. UGH. BoA's a year younger than me and has been successful for 9 years already. Moon Geun Young is TWO years younger than me (maybe 3) and she's just received the top prize for acting on television.

don't even get me started on natalie portman.

it isn't the thought of getting older. it's the thought of not having accomplished that much so far.

ugh. i'd love to suspend time please.